Prototypical, Male on the Autism Spectrum going through leaving life as an AFC behind follows. Ultra Beta Mode: Drug addict in recovery (18 months clean!)

Oh brethren, I want to thank all of you for the community that has saved me from a life forever Average and Frustrated. My limitations will make a LOT of this very difficult to learn. But after all of this reading, I know one day I can achieve exactly what I want from life! But let's go back in time.

I remember I was always somebody's fucking fool. Paying for dope, and never getting high. Two stays in rehab later, here I sit. I've let go of cigarettes at this time as well, with 16 months of time without even a single puff! All my life i looked at stronglifts, at running 5ks. at sharing any sort sex or anything as something that just wasn't me! "That's just not my way of doing things!" I would say as I scrolled, and scrolled and pitifully AFC'd my way through internet dating and disappointing jobs!

I still live in this community today. there's a free gym here. I do stronglifts according to the excel sheet for my measurements. This is week 3 of lifting and I already feel fantastic! I'm eating well too!

I am 26. I've had sex twice, and the second time was a weird little sub that wanted to be spanked and choked (18!)

all of this happened because I STUCK TO THE GAME PLAN. I stuck to the script and was the man all of us can and should be!

But let's fast forward, and talk about what REALLY made me swallow this fucker.. oh yes.

After a year of gaming and making eyes at an older woman here in this little rehab community, we started a relationship.

We started kissing. Touching. Oh yes...

Lo and behold, AFC dummy brain says: You still have a blue pill! She's different!

I proceeded to tell her my life story. Unlike anyone before she accepted it all. But you all know very well what fucking happened next: LJBF. After my dumb ass decided to fall in blue pill "love" because I live in a community where there are (literal figure) 10 available men to date one woman. I said I love you. What the fuck was I thinking?

pow. she breaks it off. I fall all the way the fuck into whining and even guilt trip her a little (ALL THE WAY AFC LOLZ)

We had a halloween party last night. and now she's hanging out with another guy closer to her age. I have mopped and been sad enough. We wait a year to fucking go out and shit (per these rules) and BAM. I'm nothing just. like. that.

It's hard for me to read boundaries. so yesterday I walk up to her to tell her happy halloween, and she damn near runs away. I stifle out a "goodbye" which is tersely returned. she is 10 YEARS OLDER THAN ME. what the fuck was i thinking?

but i've been reading and reading as of late. and now I know this is all true. For the first time, I want to stick to the script. I am ready to be a man. She was lying to everyone when she said she just wasn't ready. I vent to all of the so called "sisters" we have in here aaaaaaand nobody gives a FUCK. they all cover her hypergamist shit and i get damn near ostracized when i look out for my friend! I'm still not totally convinced that there isn't retaliation level shit going on with these bitches - they all clapped and cheered when I looked over and saw them sitting together. I just smiled. No more you fucking bitches. No more games. No more cuckoldry. No more beta shit. I am going to lift weights, read hard books, and fuck young sluts for the rest of my days!

I have started Stronglifts. My posture is terrible. But are we ready for some light at the end of this tunnel guys? If you've read this far through this pathetic story of shame, I love you. Thank you!

I have begun to carry myself better - notably my posture and levels of engagement, eye contact. I tease now like a motherfucker. God damn it TRP, i'm getting somewhere. I am escalating shit left and right. I am desired. I am worthy. Just like you if you're reading this:

you are worthy of a life of independence from reindeer games and bullshit. True Joy de vivre and liberation await if you just focus on yourself. These are the results of just a few days (for the love of god I have never had women look at me so hard guys. I peacocked today and fuck you guys are on to something lol one could barely get out the door and had all the mother hens grabbing at her lol)

edit fitness stats for you all: I'm down to 180's from 208-209. 6'4. ~19-20% BFP

I walked up the door unable to do one regulation pushup. Now i've done 7 minute 40 second miles, and hundreds of pushups! i did a 5k! 27 minutes for my first.