@Travis1051

With GF for nearly 3 year - thinking about getting other girls

Hey, so I am a 30 year old male, with my own house a good job etc. would say lookwise 7/10 but got some game. I have been with my GF for nearly 3 years (she was 25 at time, now is 28 years old). Anyway met her when i was buying food, got number, date and etc, At that time I was packing and starting to move to a new city, on our second date we had sex. And after that i told her something like: "I am not looking for anything serious, since I am moving and wont know what will be in future". She started crying and told me she loved me and so on so I got weak and went into an LTR (also was curious about LTRs, to know if its even worht it - wasnt in an LTR with burning desire, so I wanted to find out). Anyway she helps me move and so on, we fuck , does anal, rimming, watches lesbian porn with me. Has the burning desire still, does nearly 99% things, but no threesomes (which I want).

Sometimes she mentioned she wants kids, I didnt took it seriously. I wasnt sure if I wanted so i say I didnt know yet if I want to. By the way I had vasectomy (because of crazy ex-gf, have sperm in sperm bank If iwant kids in future. Vasectomy was best decision i made, saves money, can sleep that i am 100% protected, no late menstruation bullshit from her). Fast forward to now, she mentions kids every week (has probably the baby fever, baby rabbies or how you call it) it pisses me off since i am finding out i cant stand kids right now. Also her biological clock is ticking 28 year now ( i had some feeling that age would be problem and she would pressure me or her sister, family ). I am 30 and not ready mentally for it, maybe when I am 40 years old. Also even if i had kids there is a high chance they would be crippled (deaf - since both my parens are born deaf, I am heatlhy and normal).

I am finding out now, I also desire other women... noticing their smiles and eyes on me, dont know how long can I keep myself in control without going in and trying to fuck them. Wanna try asian, black... and 18 year old women... Also i want to become enterprenuer and in 10 years to be a milionare, so dont have to work. My priority is money than her and some future kid.

My GF loves me, wants more sex than I want lol, always initiates first. She calls me her master sometimes, and her best choice. She says that she doesnt deserve me, and that i can do better than her.

I know when in pair , one want children and the other doest want - that one of them will become resentfull to the other: "bla bla you didnt want children thats why i am unhappy", "

For 26 years of my live I was just surviving... (getting my house, problems, mental health, fitness heatlh, ED, sometime suicide thoughts) Now i want to just chill and fuck. A month ago, i just suddenly woke up in the morning and was happy that i dont have children and i am not married.

I am torn inside It just pains me to thinking about leaving her, the pain it would cause her. , I dont know the solution and what should i do.

I had some ideas that might solve it... 1) make her a cuckquean - which would probably solve my problem me wanting to fuck other women, (would take time and patience (have some guidebook), dont know if i have it though). Also still no kids. 2) force her into threesome and cuckqueaning - she told me that she doesnt want to do a threesome, but if it meant she would lose me if she didnt do it then she would do it, to not lose me. Dont know if this would work and she would become hatefull. 3) cheat on her, later she would find out and leave. Or stay and later become hatefull. 4) tell her how i feel about all this - dont think she would leave but would become hatefull cuz of me not wanting kids.

BTW Before this GF I had short term ex-gf before ( 3 months lasted , I knew she had to go cuz of her attiduted, so i left her) still even when i knew i would leave her, i still cried like a bitch after leaving her. Not because of her character, but cuz i was used to everyday contact of her and sleeping with her. Because at that time i yearned for physical touch, sex and so on. After leaving her and 3 months later i got myself together back.

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@brownpride1488

She slept with another guy when we were on a break

Long story short, she was travelling out of country for a couple of months and found out I was messing around with other women. We fought over the phone, made up, but fought again a few days later and stopped talking for two weeks. Called her again, she said she thought we’re not in a relationship anymore and that we can discuss it after she comes back. A month passes, she’s back home, we get back together. She says she hasn’t been with anyone after me and so we became very serious, eventually plan for a future together. This was many months ago. Today I found out she actually did fuck a guy during those two weeks. I did tell her when we first started dating that I won’t take her back if she ever slept with anyone other than me. What should I do with her? I know that I can’t in good conscience ever be serious with this chick anymore, but she is very submissive, a fantastic fuck, good conversationalist and intelligent. I’m considering the following options: 1) break up immediately, 2) tell her I forgive her and nothing changed but actually look for a replacement while still fucking her, 3) tell her that we can still be together but from now on I’ll be seeing other women, while she still has to be exclusive with me. I imagine she will lose any respect for me if I continue as if nothing happened. Her main point is that she thought we were done and never getting back together, but after that last call after the two weeks and after fucking that guy she realized that “she still loves me” and didn’t fuck anybody else for that last month, which of course she could be fucking dozens of guys because she also had tinder installed and claims to have only used it to get attention.

Study the book and take this as a lesson learned in why you don't take ex's back. You two will always remember the discordant things that prompted you to end things. Sure, you can bang from time to time, as you both feel inclined, but whatever the relationship was, will never be again. She had her chance and blew it. Move on.