@Vermillion-Rx shit man I'm really sorry to hear this. I'm sober for 4 years and a bit after drinking for almost a daily basis for 12 or so years. even a massive stroke did not stop me from drinking - I drank myself to sleep a couple of weeks after being discharged. I have epilepsy since then which does not mix at all with alcohol but even that did not stop me, even though it tempered me at times. Overall I tried to self medicate my own dark thoughts with alcohol but (surprise) it didn't work, but now I'm in a MUCH better spot - some thoughts are still there but I manage them way better. I quit cold turkey. I did not have tremors though and you having them is not a good sign. it's worth it to swallow your pride and check in with your psychiatrist as quitting cold turkey can be dangerous (probably no news here). He'll probably give you some benzos for a while, which might also help your bipolar disorder a bit, until your brain recalibrates itself from all this poison you've been ingesting.

AA did not align with me,for reasons I can expand on, but it might work though, it's worth giving it a shot. what DID HELP me was ALCOHOL EXPLAINED by William Porter - he has a blog and two books: "Alcohol Explained" and "Alcohol Explained 2". He breaks it down really nicely in a rational way that made me rethink my relationship with alcohol. check him out here, I've read everything and I can say he was a catalyst for me - alcoholexplained.com/articles/

Annie Grace with "My Naked Mind" is also an alright resource. but inferior to William Porter in my opinion. She is more on the emotional side but she did make some good points though as far as I can remember.

for legit mental disorders like schizophrenia or bipolar disorder alcohol is only making it worse. It worsens the condition and favors psychotic/manic/depressive episodes.

DM me if you want to talk more about it. I can not empathize with your bipolar disorder as I don't have it so I don't know how it feels, but I can empathize with alcoholism. you'll need to vent with people who've been through this, not just weekend drinkers. my timezone is GMT+2. or talk to somebody else who you're more comfortable with.

most importantly, go to psychiatrist ASAP. Leave the psychologist for after you've gotten past the critical phase and gotten to a relative stable baseline, whichever that one might be for you.

@Vermillion-Rx

My drug of choice for bipolar disorder.

Self-medicating for legit biochemical issues is problematic in itself. But choosing ALCOHOL, which only ADDS physical, social, psychological, and physical issues ON TOP OF those the underlying bipolar bring? Ugh, what a downward spiral alcohol represents here.

Get in touch with local AA group. From everything I've heard, this has WORKED for countless people who failed at other ways to tackle their alcohol back-monkey. Going cold turkey from heavy alcohol consumption comes with medical risks, something those further down the path of breaking this addiction are best qualified to help with.

The GOOD news here: once you stop poisoning your body with alcohol, the secondary issues often resolve themselves. Alcohol breaks down first into acetaldehyde in the bloodstream, which like its cousin formaldehyde, poisons and hurts EVERY cell in the body, faster than natural building and healing processes can keep up.

Not sure I'd recommend going with a dopamine-pathway manipulator like Naltrexone as a first or even second resort.

You've got this, brother. And, you have a community of men here interested in your well being and development as a man. Admitting the issue and your responsibility for it is a big first step. Now, continue on the path to betterment!