3mo ago TheRedPill
Long story short, I got back together with a girl I thought was my alpha widow after two years. Everything went smoothly. I felt that genuine desire from her again. She performed oral sex on me, and I had sex with her. Everything was beautiful, and we kissed each other for long hours. I lost my frame and turned into a simp because she caught me in my sexual anxiety. At that time, I should have entered her frame. I blamed myself for the first breakup and gaslighted myself. We studied in different cities but often returned to the same city where our parents live. All good things happened in the summer before school started again. We often messaged, and everything was perfect. After about six months, she told me we had to slow down texting because she couldn't focus on her lessons. My gut felt something was wrong, but I was sure she wouldn't cheat on me because of her genuine desire. Then she gradually ignored my messages and didn't text often. I knew something was wrong, but I was emotionally investing in her too much and thought of marrying her after we finished college. But sometime after that, we broke up. I was shocked how a girl who had genuine desire for me could break up. And I heard that she cheated on me. The thought of someone else being with her killed me. I started drinking alcohol, and it was so bad. I was such a blue-pilled guy. Our college term ended, and we returned to our parents' home. It hurt, but I never showed her any sign that I was suffering. One day, I was sitting in a park with my friends, and she and her friends showed up. This has happened several times now. I think she is trying to communicate with me. What should I do? Sometimes I get suicidal thoughts. I am so confused. Please help, guys. Sorry for my mistakes in English; I'm trying to improve it.
Read MoreAt that time, I should have entered her frame.
No.
but I was sure she wouldn't cheat on me because of her genuine desire.
Genuine desire is essential, but not sufficient. A woman's character matters too. Most of them will cheat, because most of them can feel genuine desire for some new guy too.
She may have lost her desire for you. It may or may not have been something you did (your stuff reads like you did like most guys do: give in too much and let her run things). She may have been faking it all along.
You'll likely never know for sure.
;What should I do?
1) Get on with your life and fuck other women.
2) read the sidebars at TRP and MRP
3) especially read these two books from the MRP sidebar: "No More Mr. NiceGuy" by Dr. Robert Glover and "When I Say No I Feel Guilty" by Dr. Manuel Smith.
4) before you do anything else, since you're considering taking her back again, start here: Rooting Through Garbage by Rollo Tommasi
Read More3mo ago TheRedPill
Thank you for your advice man.I know this relationship is over,but i try to understand why this bitch popping up everywhere.I think i want to know she is suffering too.
3mo ago TheRedPill
@Voyager_00310 She is searching an alpha interest be careful she even might have found one,observe her behaviours and gradually start to move on,meet with new chicks.
I think i want to know she is suffering too
Anger-phase talk. It shows you still care.
The opposite of love isn't hatred; it's apathy, indifference.
There's immense power in apathy.
3mo ago TheRedPill
@Typo-MAGAshiv I have received calls from unkown number calls recently guys,somebody was crying and playing music on the background,guess who she is? Someone who has red pill eyes explain to me the all process please,i want to know,know and dont get dumped anymore,i cant control my blue pill conditioning.This bitch tryna kill me.
I have received calls from unkown number calls recently
Why would you answer those? I never answer calls from numbers that aren't in my contacts unless I'm expecting one.
guys,somebody was crying and playing music on the background
So what?
Someone who has red pill eyes explain to me the all process please
This isn't normal, but it's typical. A lot of women get off on knowing they can get an emotional reaction out of you.
Don't give it to her.
and dont get dumped anymore
It'll happen. Just be ready for it.
i cant control my blue pill conditioning.
You can overcome it, and an important step in doing so is to stop that negative self-talk, including that "I can't!" bullshit. You are programming yourself for failure when you say shit like that.
This bitch tryna kill me.
So stop caring about her. Go fuck other women.
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