@Jackmoter

Apigenin

I hadn't heard of this I might as well try it. I already have a couple bottles of ashwa that I've misplaced while moving.

Combative stress.

That's the thing, I have zero combative interactions with any remaining women in my life. None. I'm stressing out in a vacuum. Just this constant nagging paranoia of preparing for combative interactions where I'm suppressing mania so I don't have a bipolar response. But there's no one there because she's out of my life. It's just stressing out at nothing..

I'm not sure how long it's going to take for my brain to stop being on defense without the original stressor around

@Jackmoter

I think this is happening to me. I have horrendous insomnia the past couple weeks since it ended. I've also quit alcohol on day 5 I think. I abused it as a sleep med add on to my current sleep med (low dose) the past two years and without it and without her I've been near completely unable to fall asleep

Currently pulling an all nighter in a desperate attempt to fix my sleep so i Can get to bed sooner tonight

This feels like hell coming off alcohol and psychotic female behavior. I think i still have acute stress from it. I think this experience gave me some form of acute stress disorder I'm still stressing out over shadows of something that isn't there anymore. I'm still on defense and waiting for combative interactions that aren't going to happen anymore

@Vermillion-Rx Yeah man. The amount of people who told me they were impressed how patient I was lmao.

As the stockholm sort of feelings fade, you suddenly have so much energy.

@Jackmoter

Damn. Yeah I was unaware of how psychotic this woman was as well till I told someone my first few stories about shit she did and they were like "wtf i can't believe that's a real story". One guy put it pretty succinctly "oh fuck that I'm exhausted just hearing that little of what you've said, that would be a fuck no for me you dodged a massive bullet"

Somehow I did not realize the toll it was taking on me. Another reason I had to quit drinking, i think i was just drinking through every stressor from it

@mattyanon

"Why? Why lie? Because women married betas for resources, and then stated they hated sex because they really did hate sex.... with their husbands."

"Women didn't fuck alpha men, but they sure did marry betas. AND THEN DIDNT FUCK THEM."

This pretty much describes the situation of all the parents of all of my friends who are not divorced. Bold of me to assume there is no cheating going on, but I am going to nonetheless.

My ex girlfriend's parents were pretty much the only ones who still flirted with each other, but that mother was a crazy coquette and did not speak very flatteringly about sex to her daughter...

@Vermillion-Rx Hehe, throwback to me telling my ex she needs to take responsibility and apologise if she has a mood swing and storms off for no apparent reason... Her response, to tell me everything would be fixed if I said things like this during the mood swing and then banshee scream at me "WHY".

Myself, I burst out laughing in response to that, surreal moment. The look on my friends faces when I told them about that was one of the main factors which started me realising her behaviour was not normal lol.

@Vermillion-Rx I think the bigger question is:

Why do men think about fisting after they engage in conversation with you?

Ps. I've never been pegged before

@prapra-horse I'm not sure you can apply intermittent fasting to alcohol consumption lol.

@Jackmoter

Bookmarked, thank you. Is in on my gym to do list