I think i've tried and most girls are ho's at this point. Other girl was 14-16, virgin, used to be mormon but parents quit right after i met her, no online dating yet. idk im sure its possible but most girls are for sex only at this point. im 30 now too.
I'm not suggesting you to marry a chink, only that you consider the perspective the Chinese have on your situation. You're right to see yourself as damaged, but in stark contrast to your female peers, you've invested the time and energy to move beyond your traumas. Yes, many women are sluts, but this doesn't obligate you to fornicate with them, if that's of no interest to you.
@carnold03 I think i've tried and most girls are ho's at this point. Other girl was 14-16, virgin, used to be mormon but parents quit right after i met her, no online dating yet. idk im sure its possible but most girls are for sex only at this point. im 30 now too.
TLDR: -How do I enjoy my life when my reasons for living feel pointless?
-Had unicorn at 14ish-16 but I got depressed during because my dad had a gruesome death and I started fucking party girls and partying way too hard. Biggest regret of my life
-Family life was fucked. Lived in a trailer with no heat and lost electricity often, wasn't given food or water. Family did meth. Was kicked out at 18 because they didnt get a child support check anymore while still depressed and 6'1 120lbs, no degree, no license or car, no skills.
-Spent a year living with relatives far away and used the thought of my first girl to self improve. I joined the Marines in the infantry, did 2 combat deployments and reinvented myself.
-I got out and now im finishing a degree in engineering (senior). i own my home and own my truck. Im in intensive therapy for my previous life and combat deployments. I was married for a bit but got out of it when i realized AWALT and she started showing signs I didnt like so im free.
-My problem is now that my ex is married (literally with the guy for 15 years from the moment we broke up) I find myself finding no reason to live and I was using her as motivation to keep grinding. Now the grind seems pointless. I enjoyed combat sports but i had a bad back injury and don't want to risk it so now i just gym / cardio.
'What's next' is whatever you decide it should be that's worth your time, energy, and focus to pursue. You took on buying a house, a truck, pursuing an education in Engineering. What's been stopping you from seeking out another unicorn after you've wrapped up your diploma studies?
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