furthermore, I kept rejecting her advances to get back together, even after she knew I cheated. Because i felt like I was not good enough for her anymore, and I broke her trust in me, meaning the relationship would be unsalvageable.

But the truth is, me not giving myself the chance and not giving her the chance to mend this relationship has been eating away at me for weeks. I haven't been able to sleep well and function properly. I still keep up with my work and fitness, but the loss of sleep is causing a lot of problems for me. I am not at peace with myself and my decision.

I thought I would be happy with a hot 10/10 girl, but I realized that I really care for my ex, and the relationship we've built has been so strong and meaningful, it would be extremely immature and naive of me to just throw it down the drain... right?

@Lone_Ranger

First off, I really appreciate that there are people like you out here who are willing to respond and give advice to random strangers like me on the internet. I want to thank you for this, even though it's not much it really helps me a lot.

Regarding the question you asked, I think that I was addicted to the validation, but I've taken some time to think carefully and realized my mistakes. I am thinking to reconnect with my ex, as she was very keen on continuing the relationship a few weeks prior. At one point, she even waited for me outside my house for 2 nights, while I wasn't home. I'm not sure if it's is the right idea or not, but I would be filled with regret if I didn't at least try to get her back.

This is because she was with me through the toughest points of my life, and for me to bail right at the smallest distraction would make it impossible for me to live with myself.

To conclude, what would be the best way to approach this? I really prefer to meet her, and most likely try again, and if she rejects, at least I'll have peace knowing I tried my best.

@lalola0101

Hey guys, need some help, really appreciate any feedback.

Basically, I (25M) just broke up with my 5 year LTR (25F), who loved me like crazy and would always support me through all my lows including my worst points in physically (health), and even helping me financially when I had a huge problems with my business.

Recently, things have been going better for me, and I have become greedy in the sense that I started cheating with other girls including a really hot 9.5/10 girl. And because of this added with a busy schedule of work and trying to make more money, I just provided lesser and lesser time and attention to my girlfriend. This caused her to become extremely angry, lonely, sad and tired, leading to more arguments and basically her questioning the loss of passion and if I even still love her. Because of all this, I got extremely tired of maintaining the LTR and agreed to some of her viewpoints that we might be on different paths, leading to our breakup. (1 day ago)

After the breakup, I've gone no contact and immediately continued to bang the 9.5/10 chick, but I'm thinking if what I'm doing is beneficial to my life in general or not. Basically, I'm not sure I can train and guide another girl like how I've trained my 5 year LTR to be submissive and to be loving to me anymore. This is because I probably won't be having as much time as before, and I'm worried that letting my current LTR go might be a crucial mistake because I mostly value my career.

Some extra points:

• my LTR had been upset that I told her the truth straight up that I wouldn't able to marry her in the next 2 years
• I've actually known her since high school, but we got together 5 years ago, and I'm basically her first real boyfriend
• she's overall a joyful girl as long as I give her time and attention, has shown to be kind and appreciative towards me
• during arguments she becomes rather masculine and violent, which I have managed to tune down over the years. but still happens.
• she texted me one day after our breakup saying that "she thought she was worth fighting for" even though she was the one who kind of initiated the breakup, albeit I was the one who withdrew alot of attention for no reason due to work and side chicks.

Overall, I feel like I may have been at fault because I provided her with very little care and attention out of the blue after the increased workload and also the increased amount of side plates. And the recent 9.5/10 side plate may have made me more interested in banging her, leading to less attraction to my LTR. I believe I may have messed up, but I know I might be able to salvage the relationship easily by just meeting up with my LTR and bringing back a positive mood, as that usually works somehow. But I'm not sure what's the play here, and what's the most ideal scenario for me moving forward. (side note: my LTR has been busy with her own career, and is close to hitting the wall, not being as fit as before and slowly turning unattractive for me. I have lost alot of attraction and am not sure if I can regain it. However, I appreciate her that she's actually trying to work towards a future and to have a family and kids with me.

I'm so stuck and lost in what I want myself, and I really need some guidance from men in here who are just more experienced, because I really do not know what is the most optimal thing to do for my own good. Please help me to make a decision. Thanks in advance guys.

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