There's no talent here, this is hard work. This is an obsession. Talent does not exist, we are all equal as human beings. You could be anyone if you put in the time. You will reach the top, and that is that. I am not talented, I am obsessed. — Conor McGregor

Until recently I thought I suffered from depression. Perhaps that explains all my failures: why it took me 8 years to finish college, why I failed at multiple careers, why my ex-wife left me, why I still live with roommates in my mid-30s.

Fuck that. Depression? It's gone. It no longer exists in my world. I'm just not consumed enough with my own mental health and self-improvement. The desire is not there, not fully. I'm not obsessed.

I'm building my own business, or so I say. And yet often I procrastinate tackling important tasks to grow my biz. I'd rather sleep a little more, go out for drinks, waste time on Youtube or Tantan (asian version of Tinder) or just space out. I'm not obsessed.

What am I willing to sacrifice to reach my goals? Chasing pussy? Most of my friends? Alcohol? Following my sports teams? Plans on adopting a dog or two? If I am having a hard time letting these go, then I'm not obsessed.

McGregor, like all self-made men, practice an unconscious self-value. Why do they work so obsessively? Because they are worth it. It's not even a fucking question to them.

Honestly I have not tried hard enough in my entire life because I never saw myself being worth the struggle. I just cried and whined in my half-assed hardships, like everyone else. I have not been my own mental point of origin.

Maybe McGregor's quote can be discounted because of survivorship bias. "Mistaking confidence for competence" is already a huge mistake I made in one failed career. But I'm running out of time. If I can't change now, it will never happen.

I am obssessed, because I have to.

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