Hello everyone , hope you are doing very well .

I am really in a fucked up mental paranoia right now , your advice would help that will really sooth me .

I am with a LDR for 5 months now , she pushed for exclusivity many times (Not by the talk) but by removing all her dating apps , saying her Pussy is mine , i own her and tries to please me sexually and non sexually (Cooking etc ) etc... I gave it a try , not saying we are exclusive but i acted like we are , i dropped my 2 plates too without saying anything (I outrank her massively on SMV level ) , in addition i pay for all dates because she is a student .

All was good , because at the beginning i wasn't paying attention to what she does or she says , a plate is a plate .

Now as things became more serious , i pay more attention to texts timelapse and i feel like my oneitis is creeping in.

I tracked her ovulation phase , it's those 3 days , and by coincidence she vanishes for 9 hours (Not working , not studying this week ) , and respond when she is at home (because her parents rarely let her sleep outside) , says she was with her sister shopping , a female friend visited her and they went out and tries to keep the conversation with affection , emojis etc , good night .... I dind't buy this shit and the paranoia began AWALT.

Adding to that , she said she will send me nudes to recharge me for the next time we will meet , and she didn't (I didn't ask for them or said anything) .

To be honest i didn't sleep well 3 days in a row , i keep my sanity by running every night . I am really sure in my deepest guts this bitch is cheating (There can be no coincidence of vanishing and her ovulatory phase without cheating , the problem is i don't have a proof .... LDR ) . My dread is on point , minimal affection , coldness after thoses vanishes , she tries to keep conversations , double texts etc ....

I took a decision that i will end this mess , keep lifting and work on my career . Honestly i can't plate her , oneitis is creeping in , to restore my plates i need time , and if i open the relationship , i will be more hurt (Seems like she has many backups she is actually cheating with) .

Now , we arranged to see each other the next week (she will come to my city) to stay together for valentines and her birthday .

So i prepared a revenge plan (Beta trait but that will appease me at least ) , i will fuck her one last time , have good time , lovebomb her , do all naughty things i think of , then when i drop her at the train station i will send this message to: Hey babe , i think this long distance thing won't work , it's better to stop it now . Wish you all the best / Then go ghost without closure .

What do you think guys of my paranoia and if it's justified and my revenge plan .

You guidance and advices are very well appreciated .

If she is single at 39, it is because she wanted to be single. There is no two ways about it.

She didn't 'need no man' because she had enough cash from her work, but now that she finds that she 'wants a man'.

That is not how it works. Men and women get together because they 'need each other'. That is the only way it can work.

What she is forgetting is this..... Now she 'would like' a man, but there is basically no man that would 'need her'. Men on her radar fall into two groups...

1. They want to reproduce, to have a family. She is not a good match for these men, because of her infertility at 39, also because of her body count.

2. Men that have already reproduced and are not looking to reproduce again. This group of men are super red pilled. They are not going to interested in this kind of woman. They have seen it all.

So there is no market for her.